Hard time

Hi,
I am having such a hard time right now, being so broke, and no one cares. It is so hard to handle on top of the illness.
Oh God, maybe it is just that it is winter, and I am feeling so bad for so many days, but life just really sucks right now, sorry folks, just had to vent to a blank page, cause there is no one who will listen, no friends, family is sick of it, and no guys anywhere to be seen. Boy did I make some major mistakes in my life, first to admit it. Why didn't I marry one of the guys who offered, I was so afraid of being hurt, and look at me now, Wowwwweee. Can it get any worse.

I pray so hard I get headaches, and even God seems to be to busy, and I know there are so many things going on right now, with all the disasters, but I wish he could give be a little help here and there. Show me the way, I have always worked more than one job at a time, and now I am like why can't I do this anymre, let me get better, or help me with my money. I pray, and pray, and pray, and I don't know what else to do. so sad, me right now...and crying hurts my head so bad, a can't even do that, I just sit and stare and think, what am I doing wrong, where no one will help me, no one cares.........
But it never crosses they minds. I guess I have splittled enough about all my heartaches for one night. yaya
I feel like I am in some kind if an experiment to see how much I can take, but it isn't much....
Just Me............