Again, I saw the light

A few times in my life I have seen the light, this was another one. God know not to show me the full light , it is to hard to come back.


Sometime during the late morning hours I was in my sleep, but this not being a dream as I can tell this from a dream. I have had too much experience in this type of stuff. I being asleep, looked up and saw through the window and top of a dark colored wagon like car, like a station wagon. Then I was through it(through metal and glass just my soul) and ascending into the sky upward, very fast so fast I felt my body arched backwards, but yet felt no body at all. I zoomed through darkness and during this ascent I felt bad aching pain throughout my upper torso. I heard the roaring sound a bit higher than one would think but not real high sounding in tone.( I have heard this before when being fully awake) I saw a flash of the light, so quick as to only show me its existence, and I wanted to get through to it, I wanted to be in the light, to be there for good. Leave my body behind and all my pain and suffering etc.I felt it slip away, and God's decision it was a mistake or it was what was happening to another and I was glimpsing what they were going through, they went onto the light, I returned. At first I felt warm in my upper torso, felt like I was covered in warm blood like my throat had been slit and I was covered. Then I felt very hot and awakened throwing the covers off. And my immediate thought was why I couldn't stay in the light, why I was alive. I thought that maybe I stopped breathing in my sleep and died, but then the car meant it was from someone else's event, like when Rickie died. And why did I feel such upper torso pain, perhaps it was a car accident, and I came in at the point where the car came to rest and the body of this person died. Either way, I laid for awhile thinking about it, and sad I remained here, it being God's will I remain
Just Me.......